"My name is Lou Vincent and I
am a cheat.
I have abused my position as a
professional sportsman on a number of occasions by choosing to accept money
through fixing.
I have lived with this dark
secret for many years, but just months ago I reached the point where I decided
I had to come forward and tell the truth.
It's a truth that has rightly
caused uproar and controversy in New Zealand and around the world.
I have shamed my country. I
have shamed my sport. I have shamed those close to me. For that I am not proud.
I lost faith in myself and the
game. I abused the game I love. I had to put things right.
Speaking out. Exposing the
truth. Laying bare the things I have done wrong is the only way I can find to
begin to put things right.
The time has come for me to
now face them like a man and accept the consequences, whatever they may be.
I could not live with my
wrongdoing any longer, and after meeting my future wife Susie, after learning
what unconditional love really is, I felt strong enough to tell her what I'd
done, and she has helped me take the painful steps to telling my parents, my
wider family, and then the authorities.
I am proud of those I love. Especially
my immediate family and friends. Their strength, support and forgiveness has
enabled me to address some deep and uncomfortable issues in my life.
I can finally look my children
in eyes and tell them that honesty is the best policy, even if it feels like
the hardest thing to do at times.
I now believe in myself as a
person again and do not wake up every morning hating myself.
Today is the day I offer my
deepest apologies to the public and the cricketing world, to the loyal fans, to
the dedicated coaches, staff and all players past and present.
I apologise to the and thank
the ACSU [Anti-Corruption and Security Unit] for their help and support, which
is out there for all players and it has helped me a great deal. Chris Morris
and his legal team, and all associations that have handled this sensitive
situation with professionalism and respect.
The people who know me know I
am vulnerable. But they also know I am not stupid and that I know what is right
and what is wrong.
I do suffer from depression
but it is absolutely no reason or excuse for all that I have done wrong.
I used to think mistakes were
the actions of bad people. I now know even good people can make the worst of
mistakes. My actions, I will regret for the rest of my life.
For sport to prosper, it is up
to the players to police the game, because they are the ones that will
ultimately lose out if they allow themselves to be used as pawns to make money.
No one should ever be put in
that position. And no one should ever allow themselves to forget what sport is
about and let money rule their decisions.
The decisions I made were
wrong. Players must be better than that. Above reproach. For the fans. For the
sport.
For the first time in a very
long time I feel positive about the future because I am finally becoming the
man I wanted to be. I have to face up to my wrongs to make them right.
I have kept my head down for
too long now. This is my time to man up to my mistakes and today I can stand
with a better conscience because I know I'm doing the right thing.
It is entirely my fault that I
will never be able to stand in front of a game again. It is entirely my fault
that I will not be able to apply my skills in a positive way to help future
cricketers.
But it is entirely possible
that I can use this moment to convince others not to be tempted by wrongdoing.
To do the right thing for themselves, for their families and friends, and for
the sport they love.
I accept my punishment and I
thank you for [reading] my statement.”
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